Self-Inspiration..

'有一束光 那瞬间是什么痛的刺眼..
 你的视线 是谅解为什么舍不得熄灭..
 我逆着光却看见 那是泪光 那力量我不想再去抵挡..
 面对希望 逆着光感觉爱存在的地方 一直就在我身旁..' ~ edited 逆光-孙燕姿


The above quote is taken from a song lyric, of which I've mentioned beside the quote. I was browsing through my song list and it just came to me that I once remembered a song as such. I went to search it on YouTube frantically. Unfortunately, the videos available are of low quality and badly edited. I didn't manage to download the song eventually.
So I kept listening and repeating it on YouTube (putting up with the noises as well as unwanted pitches). Seeing that I am in the midst of an exam, this song never fails to help me calm myself down and think clearly, logically. I cannot get it out of my head. Safe to say, this song is truly inspiring as well as encouraging to me. I recommend this song to everyone. :D


So yeah. Exam papers come and go, it seems there's no end to it. I've been struggling. Struggling with the fact that, with maths being the front few papers, I literally went on a head on collision ending up pretty much dead. I have to pull myself back together. Better stand up fast and move on otherwise I'll be losing out to the others. I can't let that happen, just gotta get back up on the road.
So now I'm preparing for the most tedious exam day among all. With 3 papers in a morning, I'm pretty much sure I won't get out of the situation.. Uhm.. Alive.. Think about it, a maths paper, and 2 papers of chemistry.. Like Lol.
*Bangs* (Shoots self in head)
That aside.. I've got to remind myself to get a new calculator. My previous one broke down all so sudden. Only God knows what happened to it. o.O..


Recently I've been browsing Deviantart like.. A LOT! I came across several professional artist that seek incomes by doing commisions. Their artworks, one word - AMAZING. I'm inspired to draw even more, and even more desperate to get a credit card and join PayPal and force a commision with them. (O.o.. fiesty little kid) Yeah! I AM that desperate.

Credits to: Mazjojo on DA

Credits to: dead-robot on DA

Without a PayPal account and credit card, I could only watch in envy as other people got their commisions done one by one and posted it on DA. Though I felt bad nevertheless it constantly reminds me to not give up on my drawing capability. Somewhere in my head there's this still small voice that kept me up and going, saying - someday, just someday I'll be able to draw like that person. Its a good thing to have insipiration, but dreams would not have been reality if it was for the perspiration as quoted. Both are intertwined, one cannot be without the other.


I'm glad that I did not rush my actions as to ask any of them to save me a commision (though I really felt the need to). Sometimes these small self-disagreement will help to achieve a goal set before our eyes. By giving in to ourselves, we ignore the bigger picture, the complete picture.
DA has been kind to me by keeping me posted of the admirable artworks of such artists.
Someday, I'm gonna be like them to, minus the commision offer!!

I'm sure someday I'll be able to draw like Sai do. :3